Sunday, February 21, 2021

ya know?

I want real love

the “I saw you need this so I got it”

type love

you know?


I want a comfortable love

one I don’t feel any shame

the “ok and?”

type love

ya know?


I want a constant love

the kind I don’t worry is ruined

with a bad fight

type love

ya know?


I want a funny love

where my face hurts from

laughing with them so much

type love

ya know?


yeah that’s what I desire


a deep type love 


I wanna write poems 

and sing songs about

type love


an inspired love

ya know?


a love that fills me to the brim

even on my darkest days


I want a resilient love

a “cross the ocean for you”

type love

ya know?


an undeniable love

one that greets people before I do

ya know?


a beautiful love

one that makes people

believe in magic

ya know?


I want a 90s love song 

type of love

Ya know?

Jodeci nem in the desert

In leather type love


I want a love worth fighting for

one where pride doesn’t exist

ya know?


a best friend love

ya know?

the type where they're the first person

I look for when I get news


I want an unapologetic love

a love I choose them every time

ya know?


I want a love that makes me 

scream love songs 

at random times 

when I think of them

ya know?


A “what you eat today”

type love


“did you get home okay”

type love


I want a protective love

a “roof in the pouring rain”

type love



Ya know?


that’s the kind of love 

I aspire to have

to give

to share

to build


a “I’m scared to lose you”

type love


a peaceful type love


I wanna “make a playlist

about you”

type love


I want a chicago love

a drive on the lake type love

Ya know?


the type love people

Shy away from


I wanna embrace it


I want to live in it

bathe in it

drink it in


a “back at one”

type love

ya know?


a "you got it bad"

type love


a "heaven sent"

type love


a "die with you"

type love


a "no letting go"

type love


an "at your best"

type love


a healing love

a pure love


yeah that’s the type love

I want


and I’ll get it


Sunday, February 14, 2021

two for one

two flames walked

together 

sometimes apart


two flames loved

each other

and others 


two flames ran

to and from

each other


two flames existed

in every lifetime 

possible together


two flames touched 

each other deeper

than any other could


two flames merged

timelessly

distance not a factor


two flames 

made a big blaze being together

bigger than either had ever caused


and then they walked away

leaving scorch marks 

on others


then one day

only one flame remained


Monday, February 1, 2021

somehow you forgot

 I tried to let you in

Somehow you forgot


I loved you so much that it hurt to breathe without you

Somehow you forgot


Some days I needed you more than I could say out loud

Somehow you forgot


I needed intimacy and affection from you, without sex

Somehow you forgot


I needed to feel special sometimes, I would’ve liked that

Somehow you forgot


You excluded me more than you care to acknowledge or remember

It hurt so bad I stopped asking

Somehow you forgot


I cried to you

Somehow you forgot


I needed you for shelter 

Somehow you forgot


What about all the times I went out my way for you?

Somehow you forgot


Remember how I would grab snacks or something for you randomly

Somehow you forgot


I think how often I picked you over everybody else

Somehow you forgot


I remember every birthday of yours we shared

Somehow you forgot


I remember hopping trains to get to you

Jumping into ubers and lyfts for you

Somehow you forgot


I remember giving you my last

Somehow you forgot


I remember telling you how lonely I felt in the world

Somehow you forgot


I remember falling asleep on the phone together

Somehow you forgot


I remember giving you more of me than I ever gave anyone

Somehow you forgot


I remember being perfect for you

Somehow you forgot


I remember you taking random pics and videos of me

Somehow you forgot


I remember the love after the fights

Somehow you forgot


I remember giving you all the power

Somehow you forgot


I remember wanting to live in each other’s skin

Somehow you forgot


I remember the drunk nights together

Somehow you forgot


Days that were bad I couldn’t sleep without you

Somehow you forgot


I filled needs I saw you had

Somehow you forgot


My love

Somehow you forgot


We had so many plans

Somehow you forgot


Or maybe that was me

Or both


All the late night calls I answered

Somehow you forgot


All the late night visits

Somehow you forgot


All the times I swallowed my pain and my pride

For you, for us

Somehow you forgot


All the “firsts” we shared

Somehow you forgot


I needed comfort that day all those years ago 

Somehow you forgot


"I could've helped you thru that, loved you thru that."

somehow you forgot


I needed help all these years

Somehow you forgot


I needed love, pure unconditional love

Somehow you forgot


I damn near killed myself for us

Somehow you forgot


How could you forget me?

Us?


Somehow you forgot to notice me

Somehow you forgot to love me

to kiss and hug me

to hear me


How?


You forgot to see me


Share your secrets so for once

I can forget you too


nodus tollens

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